Post by adolphuscrowfeather on Mar 4, 2015 11:39:37 GMT -6
Yeah, for me, this was the biggest problem I had.
I don't fear hell anymore, and long story short the 1/2 of my family who are born again die hards who scare me to bits on how they see the world, especially through Perry Stone, nearly believing Muslims will end the world by making Chrislam and crap like that in which other things I can't explain related to it cause I block it out, doesn't help, and their attempts to convert me (though 10000 times less then the first second I said I was pagan) never work, for I can't accept their God or the philosophy they teach in it (which, ironically, is heavily based on if they are Jewish, for sometimes using the Old Testament even though as seen on Tumblr technically means they think the Messiah hasn't come....) . It made them look like immoral racist people.
Worse, they want me to "consider Christianity still".
More to the hell part, I think one, after really processing, I was Christian to avoid it, which I am now grown out of. I never supported changing others to convert and change their being, seeing personal journeys as important, not ones pushed or dictated upon you. I also nearly used the God of Christianity, "Give me this, heal me that,
"
I also decided that I never felt desire for the Christian God. Never. He was just some random person in the sky who I at the end felt disgusted of.
I mean, really, how can one even say what he did was good, genocide, wipe outs, things like that. Holy, even.
Honestly, it seemed morally corrupt.
It sounds crazy, but I was so light hearted, and trust me I hate him to death, but I never would want to see Hitler burn for his actions.Again, I can't say this enough, I don't condone Hitler at all.
With Gaelic Polytheisim, I actually feel a connection and love, and somewhat more justness and okay ness for imperfection. I would never sing for the Christian God, but I can easily and would love to sing for the Gaelic.
I can go on and on, but I am at a blocked state of mind and have nothing else at the moment.
I'm probably missing some things or putting wrong things so don't fault me there, I only have a tablet to really talk on.
Edit: two things
One, I don't think Jews are bad. I read this and want to make that clear if that's how I sounded. It's more people who are Christanity using the parts of the bible to use for their needs while neglecting things that don't fit (like you can't remarry) and actually insult their God for using the Old Testament if that's meant for as if the Messiah hasn't come as that is the Jewish belife.
Two, this can be added to why I tend to get ehhhhhh when I try to reconstruct from GC to GP. Also why I had that idea I posted, as beyond my Aspergers, and disabilities in the area trying to convert GC to GP, especially being still new, I nearly choke up in reading trying to understand how to convert it, for though I don't hate Christians, the people, I am frightened if the philosophy in the religion, which almost can be considered a fear, so it's a fear, ontop of prosessing problems, on top of other things, that really hurts me. But I am not afraid of hell, but I still always think what if of course. If so, well, I'll try my "defense" if I have any, and kind of like said, would be fine that I followed my own path and rather not deal with a God (Christian or otherwise) that did such horrid actions, eternal judgements, and injustice and pure greed and jealousy, etc that in their belife is said to be a perfect all loving God who still loves you as he sends you to torment for you didn't choose or want him... even though he technically gave free will. I am fine and respect imperfection and that the gods and goddesses know and respect they are that. Honestly,mit almost makes them more relatable and approachable, as well as much better for an actual relationship, rather than trying to ultimately try to be a perfect person in the religion eyes or face retribution.
i might read this again and find an imperfection... Lol... So if I sounded bad at a place and sudnt mean it, I'll try to rexplain. Thank you Aspergers! (That was saracasm for that last exclamatory sentence)
I don't fear hell anymore, and long story short the 1/2 of my family who are born again die hards who scare me to bits on how they see the world, especially through Perry Stone, nearly believing Muslims will end the world by making Chrislam and crap like that in which other things I can't explain related to it cause I block it out, doesn't help, and their attempts to convert me (though 10000 times less then the first second I said I was pagan) never work, for I can't accept their God or the philosophy they teach in it (which, ironically, is heavily based on if they are Jewish, for sometimes using the Old Testament even though as seen on Tumblr technically means they think the Messiah hasn't come....) . It made them look like immoral racist people.
Worse, they want me to "consider Christianity still".
More to the hell part, I think one, after really processing, I was Christian to avoid it, which I am now grown out of. I never supported changing others to convert and change their being, seeing personal journeys as important, not ones pushed or dictated upon you. I also nearly used the God of Christianity, "Give me this, heal me that,
"
I also decided that I never felt desire for the Christian God. Never. He was just some random person in the sky who I at the end felt disgusted of.
I mean, really, how can one even say what he did was good, genocide, wipe outs, things like that. Holy, even.
Honestly, it seemed morally corrupt.
It sounds crazy, but I was so light hearted, and trust me I hate him to death, but I never would want to see Hitler burn for his actions.Again, I can't say this enough, I don't condone Hitler at all.
With Gaelic Polytheisim, I actually feel a connection and love, and somewhat more justness and okay ness for imperfection. I would never sing for the Christian God, but I can easily and would love to sing for the Gaelic.
I can go on and on, but I am at a blocked state of mind and have nothing else at the moment.
I'm probably missing some things or putting wrong things so don't fault me there, I only have a tablet to really talk on.
Edit: two things
One, I don't think Jews are bad. I read this and want to make that clear if that's how I sounded. It's more people who are Christanity using the parts of the bible to use for their needs while neglecting things that don't fit (like you can't remarry) and actually insult their God for using the Old Testament if that's meant for as if the Messiah hasn't come as that is the Jewish belife.
Two, this can be added to why I tend to get ehhhhhh when I try to reconstruct from GC to GP. Also why I had that idea I posted, as beyond my Aspergers, and disabilities in the area trying to convert GC to GP, especially being still new, I nearly choke up in reading trying to understand how to convert it, for though I don't hate Christians, the people, I am frightened if the philosophy in the religion, which almost can be considered a fear, so it's a fear, ontop of prosessing problems, on top of other things, that really hurts me. But I am not afraid of hell, but I still always think what if of course. If so, well, I'll try my "defense" if I have any, and kind of like said, would be fine that I followed my own path and rather not deal with a God (Christian or otherwise) that did such horrid actions, eternal judgements, and injustice and pure greed and jealousy, etc that in their belife is said to be a perfect all loving God who still loves you as he sends you to torment for you didn't choose or want him... even though he technically gave free will. I am fine and respect imperfection and that the gods and goddesses know and respect they are that. Honestly,mit almost makes them more relatable and approachable, as well as much better for an actual relationship, rather than trying to ultimately try to be a perfect person in the religion eyes or face retribution.
i might read this again and find an imperfection... Lol... So if I sounded bad at a place and sudnt mean it, I'll try to rexplain. Thank you Aspergers! (That was saracasm for that last exclamatory sentence)